Great Sinner and Greatest Savior
As I contemplate Good Friday 2016, the year I may reach my eightieth birthday, watching movies about the passion and death of our Lord Jesus Christ, as I see the enormous brutality heaped upon Him, I can’t help but reflect on the magnitude of sin in my life. The memory of my sin overwhelms me. Yet I know that Christ died for them all; past, present and future. I began to wonder just how much of a sinner I was and still am? How many of my sins are responsible for His suffering and death? How many of my sins before my day of salvation (Sept 28, 1978) and how many after?
Now two thoughts consume my mind and heart, the magnitude of my sin and the magnitude of His grace.
How much have I truly grieved for eighty years of my accumulative sin? How much godly sorrow have I truly had for so many sins?
How much gratitude have I shown for such accumulative amazing grace? I’m ashamed to admit I may have failed in both cases.
I ponder what sins have I ignored? What sins I have dismissed as no big deal? Unintentional sins. Sins I don’t remember. Sins of doubt and unbelief. Sins of attitude. Sinful thoughts. Sinful words. Sins of gluttony, anger, and Idolatry. What sins have I rationalized away? What sins have I never asked for forgiveness? How often did I lack faith? No doubt I have broken all of His commandments many times over. Sins, sins, and even more sins!
How much of the Via Dolorosa is held to my account?
How much of all the sin on the beam was my sin? How many of the sins that nailed Him to cross were mine? How many of the sins that pieced His hands and feet we mine? How many of the sins that crowned Him with thorns were mine? How much of the pain was cause by my sin as the sword pierced His side? How many of all the sins imputed to Him were mine?
Does it cause you to wonder about your sin as it does mine?
I fear we sin more than we know or think and fail to be adequately grateful for His grace that is greater then we can ever imagine. Can we or did we ever have sorrow enough to cover all our sin?
Does our depravity mask the magnitude of our sin, and the awareness of His amazing grace, thus hindering our ability to have godly sorrow that would lead to true repentance?
His word says as far as the east is from the west He has removed all my transgressions;(Psalm 103:12) …. But they were still accumulated on the cross. We’re yours?
His word says my sins and transgressions He will remember no more; (Isa 43:25)….. But they were still accumulated on the cross. Were yours?
His word says He has put my sins behind His back where He can’t see them (Isa 38:17) …. But they were still accumulated on the cross. Were yours?
His word says He hurled my sins into the depth of the sea (Micah 7:19) …. But they were still accumulated on the cross. Were yours?
His word says He blotted all my sins from my record (Isa 43:25) …. But they were still accumulated on the cross. Were yours?
His word says though my sins be crimson red, He will make them white as snow. (Isa 1:18) …. But they were still accumulated on the cross. Were yours?
As I reflect back over my nearly eighty years of sin (yes though forgiven in September of 1978) I can only imagine how many of all the sins nailed to the cross were mine. Did that thought ever occur to you?
O Lord grant us godly sorrow that leads us to true repentance.
Oh what marvelous love, what wonderful sovereign joyful grace! In all of this I ponder what the hymn writer John Newton, of Amazing Grace wrote, “Two things I pray I will never forget dear JESUS, that I am a great sinner, and You, O CHRIST, are a great SAVIOR!”
Happy Resurrection Sunday.